The Ramblings of a Fool

I have recently been accused of being self-involved and disregarding of the welfare of others. This is not the first time this has happened; other so-called friends have said the same thing. The thing is, they all have one thing in common: they are males who have made their sycophantic love for me more than obvious. And so, for this reason, I sort of slide into a mode where I feel that I can talk about myself forever and they will be there to listen.

I think (I hope) we all have those random, scattered people in our lives who we go to to listen to us, to give us limited feedback (even when more is desired), to fill in a sporadic void when one needs desperately to pour out one's soul to someone. So is it really fair to accuse someone of being self-centered and uncaring when it's inevitable that they have similar people in their lives? And they usually never even bring up themselves anyway - how do they know I wouldn't offer the same listening ear if they were to lay out their issues and problems for me?

We all have people we use and abuse in life - I guess this isn't really a good thing and isn't something I should be promoting, but my thoughts are acutally that it helps us as a people to prop each other up in this manner. As long as you're not using someone for malicious or self-promoting purposes, what's the harm in having a shoulder to cry on?

Honestly, the point of all this is that I was really insulted by the attack of this most recent "friend," and wanted to cease contact with him. The funniest part? I haven't stopped talking. As long as he's going to listen, I'm going to talk. Right or wrong, that's just what it is.